packing…something i hate to do with a passion. Now i don’t hate many things but packing happens to be one of them. Now I’m not talking about packing for a road trip or a tropical vacation. That kind of packing makes me happy because i know that i’m getting away from reality for a while. I hate the kind of packing teachers have to do at the end of the year. I don’t like having to put things away and organize things. It’s usually not too big of a task since things are usually organized throughout the year, but packing it all up is one of the worst things to do at the end of the year. Coming close to the last day excites me, but the packing kills me. At least I’m not having to move it to a new classroom or new school

These days are just so bittersweet! School’s ending in a few days and I should be so very happy. But at the same times I just wanna cry because two people that I love very much are leaving me. One’s moving south (to the coast), the other’s moving north (to nashville). And here I am stuck in the middle and can’t really pick up and go anywhere, not that I want to…i love living here. But I’m gonna miss my friends more than anything. They are probably the only 2 people that know everything about me and experience everything with me, the good and the not so good. I just really wanna cry sitting here and thinking about it. It just hurts! I know that God has great plans for them in their new homes and He’s got great plans for me here but I wanna be selfish, I want them to be here with me. I tell them everything, and I know they will only be a phonecall away but who will i spend my weekends with, and who will I get advice from after school. I guess I’m just really emotional right now…i just wanna cry!!! Sometimes I guess girls just do that…we are entitled to cry every once in a while…its my turn now, i haven’t cried in a long time. Ok enough of this…i’ll survive!

It sure has been busy this week. I started my may mini class and its keeping me busy. Not as busy as I thought but its still giving me work to do. We actually only have 4 more classes that we have to go to. Some of it is online. It’s quite nice to be able to enjoy my friday nights instead of sitting in class, especially this one Sambuca should be fabulous to celebrate nono’s birthday and then heading to uptown which i always feel completely out of place in because its definitely not me. Hey but the last time i was there, it was quite an adventure, something i’ll never forget, lol.

5 more days of school…i’m counting down and already praying that my next years class will be much better than this year. I feel like my kids could have learned so much more had i not had so many behavior problems to deal with. Its been a year and i’m glad to see it end. I’ve got an interesting summer ahead of me. Not really sure how to describe it and not sure i really want to. Anyways, thats that in life…busy days, late nights, and interesting things going on.

So after much thought and talk with others, i’ve come to the conclusion that guys are really confusing. Why? I know they think the same about girls. Why were we made this way? Why is it all a mind game? I just don’t get it. I guess I’m not supposed to. I’m just supposed to live my life and trust God that He’s got a great plan for me regardless of what I want for myself. I’m just tired though of the mixed signals. Maybe I just don’t know how to read them. Some people tell me they mean one thing and then other people tell me they mean another thing. Who do I listen to. I want to listen to both but I just don’t know. Guys are so confusing!!! If any of you are reading this, why are you confusing…what’s the deal with the mixed signals? Make up your mind and quit playing games. I’m not into that. If you wanna play games, go play with my kindergartners. They’ll be happy to play games, but as for me, I’d rather not. Ok, i’m done….just needed to get that out there. Not that anyone reads this anymore, but if you do, whats your opinion. It is valued!