I have decided/realized that I deserve so much more, therefore I will not settle…under any circumstances.

I’ve really enjoyed my break but I’m very ready to get back into a routine and back into the swing of things. I’m ready to be somewhat busy so that I don’t sit around thinking about random things that girls think about. I’m ready to be so occupied that I don’t have time to overanalyze things, or even to analyze things. I’m not exactly looking forward to the week but I’m just ready to get back. I’m anxious about the year, wonder how my students will be, wonder how this whole starting school later in the summer and getting out later than usual will be, wondering how life will play out.

All of you people that get jealous that teachers get a break, this is the time of the year that you all love i’m sure. When we go back to work, spend an insane amount of money on our classroom that many times does not get reimbursed, and are crazy busy writing lesson plans, leading boot camp, and pulling our hair out because of our behavior problem students whose parents have been praying for the first day of school to start so they could get their child out of the house. You know we (teachers) love it too, haha!

Pray that I can get all things in order this week so that when the students come next week I’ll be overly prepared, that i’ll stay busy and occupied so that I don’t do the whole analyzing thing, and get plenty of sleep to help energize me throughout the day (that’s not usually a problem for me). Pray also that I’ll continue with a positive attitude the whole time.

Stay tuned for funny sayings from 5 year olds!

to bigger and better things…

I’m ready for school to start. I’m ready to get the show on the road. I’m ready for October to come and go. I’m ready for Thanksgiving and then Christmas. I’ll be ready for Spring Break after that and then it will be time for summer break but not fast enough. It seems like forever away but in reality it will all be here before I know it. Then so many questions will be answered, so many unknowns will be known, and life won’t be any easier but at least I’ll be a lot more aware of what is going on.

I’m really beginning to wonder about a lot of things…things that have happened in the past year. I’m just really not sure if I’ve dealt with things the way I should have, or been blinded by things that have been said. I mean, I pretty much trust people pretty easily unless they have proven themselves untrustworthy, so I really have no reason to not trust someone, but at the same time I just have to question things that have happened. Of course I wish I wouldn’t do that, but how can I help it. I want to guard my heart, but at the same time I want to do so without hiding it. Is that possible? I do believe it is, but why is it so hard? I want to put myself out there for people to see, I want to wear my heart on my sleeve, but at the same time, I don’t want to get hurt, I don’t want to experience heartache like so many people do. I mean I feel like I have to an extent but then I see so many people experience it so much worse than I have and I cringe at the thought that I would have to experience it even in the slightest. I pray and that helps. I talk to others and sometimes that helps. I just really wish I knew where all of this was going, or where it wasn’t going. In a week or so, I will have so much on my plate that I won’t even be thinking of this. Instead I’ll be thinking “what can I do to get this little kid to behave.” The Lord has really taught me so much this past year, more than I ever imagined He would. So I guess I’m just going to have to challenge myself to trust God completely, give everyday to Him, let Him guide me everyday and guard my heart. It sounds like so little but at the same time, it’s so hard to just give it to God. I want to badly to let Him take it all off my shoulders, but then at the same time I just wish I could have the tiniest little say in what happens. But that’s not what God wants. He wants my to give it ALL to Him…not just the little things or the big things, but BOTH the little and the big things, so that’s my goal and until next time…

I’m reading this book called Captivating and I am learning so much. I really can’t even begin to describe all that I have learned about the way I think. I have never thought about some of the things that the book talks about but now that I have read it, things just make sense. It’s been really great, and I basically can’t put it down but sometimes I have to so I can get sleep. It’s a pretty great book!

I’ve decided that I am gonna run the rock….well the half rock. I’m running the white rock half marathon on december 9th at 9am. I need some supporters, not to give me money, but to come cheer me on so I can actually finish the race. It’s only 13 miles as opposed to 26ish. I’m going to start my training here pretty soon. I’ve never trained for a marathon so we’ll see how that goes.

So my bff is moving to Nashville. Exciting for her, not so exciting for me, well except for the fact that I can go visit and only use 15000 airmiles instead of 25000 which is pretty great. I’m in the process now of planning a weekend get away to fly there. We only have one holiday besides thanksgiving and in order to make the most of my weekend I think I’ll probably go during that only holiday…i’m still trying to work the details out.

School starts soon. In 2 weeks actually. I start an august mini class monday and then start working the week after and then get my new batch of little children to start baking. Pray that they are good and don’t talk too much!